Where do I begin? It's around 2am, I'm 1/2 way drunk and waiting for my boyfriend to call. I say boyfriend because he's a boy and he's my friend. I may never see him but he called me on my birthday at 4am and that says something. He was the first one to call! But anyways... I just left the bar with one of my closest friends. I really dont have alot of friends. The more people that you eliminate from your life, the closer you become to God (I have found).
Science says that by the age of 24 your brain should become fully developed. They taught me that in all of the psyche classes I've had to take for "substance abuse". I started smoking cigarettes at the age of 17.. I was in highschool and I thought it was cool and rebelious. Never really taking into realization the fact that CANCER was/ is a real metaphysical entity in which can take over all the cells in your body and turn you into and mean, angry sick person. I couldn't comprehend that idea up until 2 months ago. My dad is a tabacco conesuer, which means he dips, which means he sucks on chewing tabacco all day. It never really bothered me up until this past year. Everyone talks about "cancer" which is a disease that has become socially exceptable and has taken away from the true meaning of what the disease really is a symptom of... (... symptom meaning... you tell me!) I believe that all sickness is a form of some probability within the mind, brain, ego- if you will, of whomever it may exist within.
I went to "the bar" tonite. Actually two bars to be exact. I love going out and getting fresh new scenary. Since I've been locked up in my parents house for the past few months after loosing my apartment due to the lack of funds, I enjoy a good meet outside. to anywhere really. But going into bars can become expensive.
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