I love being at home when my Mom and Dad get off work and having the feeling that my body is being raped by their mind. NOT. Anytime they are happy or aroused... even just from eating, I become stimulated. It's extrememly uncomfortable. It's not supposed to be that way. Especially at 24.
It's not in the conscious mind that its happening but being recognized in. For instance my Father, I don't hear him saying things to me, but in the physical sense I can feel them. His auroa is rubbing off on me, literally. I can feel it in the spiritual. Even though he's not physically around me... I can feel and visualize his presence without me physically being close to him. I'm sure, if you're a girl and you have a dad then you know what I'm talking about. Or even if you're a guy and you feel as connected to your parents. It's just really annoying and I feel violated. Since I was younger, didn't know how to recognize it... or what the awkward feelings were, now I do and I feel taken advantage of and even manipulated at times. Even if it comes naturally the whole family bond ties spiritually. However, I still don't agree that a daughter should be this close to her father or brother physically. It would be easier if I could move out.
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