I fell in love when I was 16. Guess you could say it was love at first sight. I had a boyfriend at the time. He was the kind of boyfriend that was almost "perfect". I met him in band class in the 6th grade. We maintained a friendship all the wat through highschool and at one point I thought I was going to marry him. But you dont want to marry someone that you aren't in love with. That's what I believe. I fell in love with a boy that I didn't even know. But when he walked in the room- I said to myself that I wanted to marry him. Not even knowing what God had in store for me, I would come to find out that he felt the same way too. Or so I thought. Or so I still believe. This is the only way I know how to explain Faith. Believing something you have found to be true, in your heart, even if you can't see it. This boy, or man, soon to be 24, will barely hold a conversation with me. Sometimes I blame him for my insanity but that's not fair. You can't blame your mentality on someone else's feelings. I have been wrong for placing him before everything in my life. Or have I? It has brought me closer to God. Galatians says that "God is Love". It has deffinately been a long, humbeling, rocky road. The more I grow spiritually, the closer I feel I am becoming to him. Or closer to or more like Jesus.
I was raised in a middle class, conservative, Christian family with Baptist/ Pentacost roots. This has made me who I am today. However, my parents faith is not exactly the same as mine. Generation to generation there is a revolution and a change, or expansion in the brain. As intelligence is a progression of the mind, faith and spirituality are as well and evolve within culture and belief. It is what you do with that change of Faith, no matter how similar or different it may be- to maintain your relationship with God (as you understand Him... or It).
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