So I am at yet another AA meeting. As soon as I walk in, a man who was just released from prison asks me for the groups telephone number and I politely give it to him. Yet he insisted on carrying a conversation with me and it took all I had just to respond back in a nice tone, I was a bitch, I dont like talking to strangers. Especially 50 year old men who were just released from prison. Oh! And to top it off, at the same time that guy was talking to me, a younger boy walks in and asks to speak to me "privately". Feeling completely awkward like my boundaries has been pressed against, I oblidge and speak with him. I get out of my seat and walk closer to him... but not too close (because I have this imaginary telephone booth that I keep with me wherever I go and you aren't allowed inside unless I invite you) and he apalogizes for inviting me to Six Flags with him a few weeks prior for July 4th. We met July 3rd at the same meeting hadn't seen or spoke before or after until this very moment. I dont spend holidays with strangers. Especially ones I meet at AA. Thanks. I told him not to worry about it, it wasn't that big of a deal. I didn't really know why he was apalogizing to me to be honest. I hadn't gotten mad at him when he invited me. I just said "Thanks man, but that's allright... I'll find something else to do."
Does that make me a Bitch? Probably. I dont know.
But it also makes me feel extremely uneasy to think about spending a day at Six Flags with some random dude I met at AA.
As he was apalogizing I couldnt help stare at his blue eyes, blonde hair, silver hoop earrings and bad tattoos. I felt bad for the guy I really did. I wanted to go Six Flags with him, I wanted to make him happy! Really I did. Looking into his eyes I could see how hurt he was and I wanted to fix him desperately but I also knew that it wasn't my job. Someone else needed to be there. Maybe the dude from prison could help him out. Shit, I dont know. It was akward as Hell and I had to get out of there.
I felt bad. Many situations like that one keep happening to me at the AA meetings I attend.
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