9/11/2010

Finding out that my computer is nothing but a big baby monitor has changed my entire life. Realizing that there are people who can actually listen to everything going on in my room was quite scary. At first I was angry... I thought invasion of privacy, this isn't fair. Why are they even listening to me. So I just started singing. Found some recording software online and just record and sang, but this was before I knew people were listening. This is why I became angry when I found out. Then I just got over it and gave them the benefit of a doubt that whoever was listening would be trying to help me. Hopefully this turns out to be true. I can't even begin to tell you how many nights I've cried myself to sleep... and now, realizing that people, people I know, have been hearing this is pretty embarassing. I dont know where to go from here... this has been one of the few things leading up to my most recent breakdown.