I'm trying to recollect my thoughts on reality. What actually makes up your reality and the powers that are in control of it. I broke down and told my mom all my thoughts and feelings on the things I've become to notice... or believe. What I believe to be true. Of course she didn't believe what I had to say. Hahaha. I didn't really expect her to but I know things I've noticed are true and I can't change that so call me crazy but I dont care because I haven't tripped acid in about 6 years now so I know I'm not hallucinating when I see someone I know following me constantly. Or when my left ankle starts to hurt reall bad and thats the same ankle my dad has had massive surgeries on and finally fused off a few years ago. Or even when I keep gaining weight and I barely eat, throw up the majority of the time and all my parents eat is processed fast food meats and pizza which in return has made me mother to become fairly obese. I call this unjustice and a lack of progression in science and medicine in general. When the human connection goes futher than just physical or metaphysical entities, and theres not enough scientist out there to prove the facts. Thats a bummer... man. Haha.
I am drinking Modelo and its not wanting to go down so well.
I'm lonely. Seriously... deeply lonely. I dont want to constantly ramble about my unhappyness and confusion. I need someone who believes me and feels the same about findings in life.
This hair school thing is killing me. I'm beginning to wonder if it was a mistake to even enroll. But its almost over, I've only got about 2 in a half... maybe 3 months (if I keep missing class).
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