I guess I spent too much time waiting for him to call me again to hang out like most people, or go to the movies or a bar, or record a song... I dont know... I was wrong. He had been dating someone, the pretty girl with dark hair and features not like mine, the whole time. I say the whole time meaning all the nights I was dreaming about him, listening to his songs, creating a falsity in my head that we would get back together. Once again, everything I had ever felt was proven to be false.
And having visions of him fucking her really doesn't make things any better.
I've known this for months now but the "visions" wont stop. After several nights of deep thought and serious consideration, I've quit second guessing myself... thinking that I was making it all up in my head and assuming things upon other people, I've come to the conclusion that the things I have been seeing are actually true.
The only one that could ever get me to forget about Josh lives across the country in a different state. THATS hard to accept.
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