5/09/2010

Constantly reconditioning my life. I started smoking cigarettes when I was 17. I would call myself a regular smoker. This past year I decided to quit. Then, two nights ago, while I was driving, I had a vision of my parents having sex. Not a fanciful or longing type vision but more of a sensation and photograph... a snapshot in time... brought to mind in mid thought of something completely irrelevant. Out of nowhere- at the age of 24!! This had never happened before. I was angry. So angry that I bought a pack of cigarettes. No one should have visions of their parents genitals. No one. I feel like someone should have warned me or something... I ended up taking a puff and throwing out the rest of the pack. No more cigarettes for me.