5/31/2010

I hate turning into a bitch. Constantly. Just stating how I feel about a particular situation or scenario, true or false, and not having all the facts presented to me correctly always ends up making me feel like a bitch for viewing it that way. Even if it may or may not be happening. The fact that I have to believe that it is happening, even if I dont want to, gets me angry and I have to analyse what was just presented to me over and over again until I get some sort of answer or understanding from the situation. Sometimes leaving me embarassed or like a total bitch for getting so mad. All in all, I still feel left out and confused as to why I am being left out. I know I need comfort but I just dont want to be touched by anyone. No hugs or anything. I want to express love the right way. The honest way, with the one that I love the most.