4/18/2010

He always says that he is here to help me. Help me with what? Really. If he wants to help me, he needs to be with me... more than just in spirit. He may not agree, but he is driving me crazy. Sometimes I wonder if it is intentional. Yes, he has helped me though. I have found myself and felt more without him... and lived in areas and accomplished things that I probably never would have. But if he's just here to help me, they need to send someone else in for the rest of the kind of help that I need. Help... what does that even really mean? Being there for someone else so they dont completely go insane?! Giving a hug at the end of the day? Buying groceries for someone who doesn't have enough money? So many different ways to help the ones we love around us. Helping, building, maturing can also be a form of manipulation. I think that's just human nature. If you allow it, going with intent, expecting to get something in return. If he insists on helping me the way he wants to help me then for me to accept it is to submit to him and only him, then I dont want him helping any other girls! Er, women... woman!