I feel like shit. I've been drinking more than usual lately. But I'd rather have a hangover the day after a night of heavy drinking as opposed to constant mental anguish and frustration. Always feeling unsatisfied and anxious because there is knowledge around me that I don't have insite to.
Last night was a blessing though. I met up with some friends I hadn't seen in quite awhile.
I'm still bitter and hurt. I'm trying not to get mad at the things I can't change. There are constant reminders everywhere. They will just pop up out of no where. Its like a defense system my brain uses to keep me from getting vulnerable and hurt again.
I dont know how to make this anymore clear or explain further than I already have.
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