I've become selfish again. I've been hearing lies and trying my best to fight them but living at home and not being disstracted enough with something in my life of importance has left me bitter and angry inside. My hurt is being projected onto others. I feel terrible for the way things are going. On my way home last night I kept nodding off. I should have stayed the night at my friends house but I figured that I was fine. But Dallas to Rowlett is such a long drive towards the end the road was putting me to sleep. I feel terrible and selfish and extremely unhappy again. Figuring out the truth and whats most important in life and comparing them as to what makes you a decent human is a difficult task to defeat.
Going places alone has become redundant and boring. I'm accomplishing personal goals of mine but at the same time destroying the childlike spirit my parents have given me. Which I guess can be looked at as a good thing. I am an adult and I hope they begin to realize that adulthood is not about age or accomplishment but a state of mind and understanding of knowing ones true self. Surfacing is the honest truth that we all choose right from wrong. It becomes a pretty intense thing to fathom when life comes at you in five different directions, wanting you to do five things at the same time, all the while you are choosing right from wrong in your head. Justice is something worth fighting for in everyones life.
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