Obesity isn't something that I like to talk about often but when it comes to describing people in my life whom I am close to, guess you could say it fits. I've always had weight issues. That meaning, I've always been the fat kid. Since I was little. I've been the fat kid. It ties into who I am now and the way of life that I'v been living for the past three years. Its hard being 5 foot tall and eating the foods that most people do. Its unrealistic entirely. A person of my statue can rarely eat. We process the fod alot slower. The only thing to speed up the metabolism is either a speed laxative or alcohol. Plain and simple. I hate it. I'm always comparing myself to the other girl on my left... and right with C cup boobs and legs the length of Texas. Now that I am 24, almost 25, I've come to the realization of what I can and cannot eat but being around my family all the time makes it three times harder to be myself and actually be happy with my body, remembering that the man I want to be with could have any girl he wanted with or without C cup boobs at his dissmissle. Ugh. Its annoying. Its tough. Guess you could say that I am over it but there is always a reminder that there is someone else out there who is way more beautiful who he could be with.
I wish my mom wasn't as big as she is. For several reasons. We could be alot closer. It makes me realize that she's not happy and as much as I wish I could fix it I know that I probably can't. There are always things our parents dont want to talk about. I love her for who she is but misscommunication has torn us further away the older I get.
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